a moment of clarity

i learned in anthropology that the chemical released in your brain during the beginning stages of a relationship is very similar to the chemical found in cocaine. 
so basically, when you first fall in love, you're on crack.
i decided today that people fall in love for the same reason they go skydiving or base jumping or ride roller coasters or do drugs-we crave chaos. we crave the feeling of falling, of spiraling out of control.
falling in love is just that- falling, or wanting to anyhow. we throw ourselves off of cliffs just to feel ourselves fall, to not be in control of ourselves for a moment
and all we can do is hope that someone loves us enough to wait at the bottom to catch us, to not let us hit the ground and be broken.

love is vertigo, love is the insuperable longing to fall.